Its so hard for me to believe what has happened. I still don't think I believe. This is the longest amount of time I've gone in my life without talking toher. I'm glad that we spent as much time together as we could. I'm going to miss our impromtu "field trips" to the casino, our friday lunches at the coney island and our trips together. We went to NYC and rode the subway watched the view, and went to the clothing shop that my mom saw a gossip magizine. I talked to my mom minutes before the accident and she was so excited to get home. I just helped her on thursday order a new cell phone, one that would work at her new house in gaylord, it was pink, didn't have a bulky anntenna, took pictures, and it was slim. The phone came minutes later from the UPS delivery person and when I called my mom back Ray answered the phone and he was already in an ambulance and the helicopter was on its way to get my mom. It just kills me that she's not here with me anymore. Going through some of my moms stuff I found it interesting that she has cash stored everywhere. Little amounts here and there more in some other places all hidden around the house and in her belongings. My sister found my grandfathers will, my mom's dad. Hand written on it was a note that said to look everywhere for hidden cash in teeshirts under drawers. My mom must have picked up on that. Maybe because of the divorce she went through made her do that. I have so many unanswered questions for her. She loved her new "big house" in gladwin it was on the lake. They were coming home from there when it happened. She told me about lining up all of her stuffed animals on the second floor that overlook the living room. Ray and my mom just celebrated their wedding anniversary this weekend. She was always so positive about the future.